张国荣,把我深深的感动 如果不是HK的SARS,我不会知道“哥哥”。 你问我,张国荣,一个模糊的名字停留在遥远的大学时代。你问我,Mr. Leslie Cheung, 一个美仑的影相在《霸王别姬》。一切都容易被遗忘在茫茫人海中。 4月,大大小小的报纸上充斥美伊战争和SARS,我不担心,与我无关。Commercial paper, forward contract and peanut $ 已经够我受的。但同事轰炸式讯问HK China时,我不得不上中文website 翻阅。突然间screen 上,一张男人的脸触动了我,那是一张我无言形容的脸,撕心裂肺吗?我见过世贸倒塌后那一张张悲哀的被泪水浸透的脸,但都无法与这张脸相比,它写满让人无法承受的伤痛。 “唐唐…..张国荣……Leslie…..红…..牵手……《霸王别姬》……”一行行文字强烈争夺我的视线,填充我的脑海,不知怎的内心深处有酸楚在涌动,脸上有热热的东西在滚淌。我强行下线,冲进yard, 晚风让那脸上的滚热变得冰冷。你怎么了,没听过他的歌,仅看过一部影片,我自问我苦笑,也许前一阵太累了,burn out? 我请了假,在yard开始种花。我不去 check e-mail,我怕我忍不住上线。Manager 打电话要我reviewed 报告,我知道我将out of control 了。当视线因泪水而模糊,心也被他的歌声,他的笑容,他的爱情与人格抓紧,我被感动,被他,被他,也被爱他和他的FAN所感动。我不敢上线,但我在不停的上线。 尾七,我不清楚是什么deadline 但好象leslie就要真正的走了。我不知如何表达,因为FAN 把灿烂五千年的文化中最靓的字都赋赞于哥哥。我只想告诉你-哥哥,你和你的Tong在8小时内,上一个几乎对你一无所知的人为你而深深的感动. 你是天使,你散落人间时我不曾知晓,但当我跪在圣坛前,却可将你仰望。 我突然听到歌声: I can't stand to fly I'm not that naive I'm just out to find The better part of me I'm more than a bird: I'm more than a plane More than some pretty face beside a train It's not easy to be me Wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees Find a way to lie About a home I'll never see It may sound absurd: but don't be naive Even Heroes have the right to bleed I may be disturbed: but won't you conceed Even Heroes have the right to dream It's not easy to be me Up, up and away: away from me It's all right: You can all sleep sound tonight I'm not crazy or anything I can't stand to fly I'm not that naive Men weren't meant to ride With clouds between their knees I'm only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me It's not easy to be me. |